Immediately the words of that song pop into my head, “Trust and obey, for there’s no other way to be happy in Jesus but to trust and OBEY!”

That’s how I’ve always pictured it too … Little trust, big obey! Like a school marm with her glasses half way down her nose, looking at me with disdain and disappointment: “Obey!”

Obedience. That’s such a scary word. Especially when referring to obedience to God. That doesn’t sound right either, does it? It’s scary to obey God? But it is when you can’t see and you don’t know and, as much as you want to, you don’t trust. After all, what might He require of me? Immediately my thoughts jump to duties and missions abroad, being pushed out of my comfort zone and facing the unknown. I don’t like to go there. I don’t want to be asked to do anything that I’m not prepared for, and I realize it’s less and less about what I believe of Him and more accurately what I believe of me. He’s able; I’m a coward…Most of the time.

Discipline doesn’t make me feel much better. The idea that someone is not pleased with me, that I’ve done something punishable, and that I’ve failed is depressing. And yet, it happens more often than I care to admit. Only with God it’s different. Even in His discipline He loves and accepts me. More often than not, even if I’m forced to eat crow, He sprinkles it with sugar so it tends to go down easier. His Word says, “[He] disciplines those He loves.” It’s why He asks anything of us to begin with…that same great love that desires to strengthen and grow us and teach us the importance of obedience.

But I’m finding that sometimes our discipline becomes an act of obedience or disobedience. It’s as if God says, “Okay, I’m going to let you discover this the hard way or the easy way. You can let this go or I can wrestle it from your hand. You can walk away now and your pain, though very real, will be less, or you can hold on and take chances until I have no choice but to break your heart completely.” Oh boy. Have I mentioned I’m often too hard headed for my own good?

But I’m learning. I’ve taken a licking and I’m still ticking! And, I’m finding that after a God sized spanking, He likes to hug and kiss and reassure us, “this hurt Me more than it hurts you!” I love the words of Christ that say, “In this world you will have trouble [whether of the enemy that desires to destroy you or whether it’s of your own rebellious will], but take heart [be courageous!] for I have overcome the world.” [additions mine] He’s exactly right. (Which doesn’t at all surprise since He is God!) And, though the thoughts of obedience and discipline scare me, I know that His plans for me are good, and He won’t lead me anywhere where He hasn’t first cut a path for me or won’t provide a pillar of fire or cloud to follow. Matter of fact, I don’t need those things. He’s placed within me a guide, a voice, His very Holy Spirit that says, “This is the way; walk in it.” I’ll admit, it’s not always easy and frequently it’s terribly frightening, but in the end, when God lovingly shows the connected dots, we will find it was worth it and, as painful as it felt, can never compare to the cross. “…He was obedient even to death on the cross.” Obedient to death. Am I really gonna freak out about a little spanking? Well, not today…That’s at least a start.

2 thoughts on “Trust and obey

  1. This is why we’re sisters… God is using the lessons He’s teaching me to help you, and the lessons He’s teaching you to help me! I’ve really been thinking a lot about our good friend Ozzie’s phrase “moment-by-moment obedience”. God wants us to let go of oour owrries about our own comfort and meeting our needs and say “ok God. Here I am. Right now, I’m going to obey you in this.” And He’ll take us and use us. Again and again and again. The Bible says “You will seek me and find me when you seek me with al your heart.” When we seek to obey Him, He’ll show us how and in what areas. Sometimes it’s harder that others because denying ourselves is a daily, sometimes even moment-by-moment, struggle to say God’s kingdom is more important than my needs.
    I’m praying for you, dear! God will reward our obedience! The Bible says (2 verses comes to mind) Delight yourself in teh Lord and He will give you the desires of your heart; and Seek first His kingdom and His righteouness and all these things will be added to you as well! God will take care of His children! He will NOT let the Devil snatch us out of his hand! Nothing cna separate us from His love! And when He disciplines us, it’s because He loves us enough to show us where we are wrong so we can become better people, and more glorifying to Him! Phil 1:6 – And I am CONVINCED that He who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus! Don’t give up my friend! He’s not finished with us yet! 🙂

    1. You are very wise, my sister! And God is certainly speaking to you! I’m thankful to be a part of that even if in the slightest. He is using us … And I used to think “in spite of our circumstances” but now I realize it’s more accurately “because of our circumstances.” He can only use the humble, the willing, the spilled out bc we realize we’ve nothing more to lose and everything to gain in Him! 😉

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